Hello and welcome to the MSB Podcast.
For over 100 of you already its: Vilcomen, Bienvenue, Welcome, Howdy ... again. Glad to have you back.
April 6th, 2006, is the inagural launch of the MSBPodcast.com as a bona fide business venture.
To the audience out there:
Tell your friends, and any fellow MSers you happen to meet, at a convention, at a meet or at a bar; tell them about this podcast, about podcasting in general and about the iTunes Music Store.
Heck, bring your iPod along and show 'em.
The MSB Podscast is the easiest way to get them to hear some MS news, some MS views, to get some info about MS, MS services and MS products, and, of course, to hear some podsafe tunes.
Hopefully, everybody will find something here that will light their lamps.
If not, you can write your comments on the episode that ticked you off on the http://msb.libsyn.com page or you can just email me at msb@artdogs.org.
Why? Because this is your space too.
What do you want to talk about, hear about, see?
What do you want to us talk about, hear about, see?
The feed back mechanisms are there for you! (mailto:msb@artdogs.org)
I'll be driving the listenership from other directions and we'll meet in the happy middle. (And thank you so much everybody who'se joining on my frapper map. Its slow but its growing.)
Remember a fellow MSer, Ms. Amanda Monaco, as she runs the Race for MS and join "Team Biddy". Head over to her site, http://www.biddies4ever.com/, and just do it. I'll be doing my bit that's for sure.
And I will soon be meeting with Ms. Monaco in Manhattan at the Millenium Hilton, in front of the hole in my heart and in the heart of downtown New York, to discuss her MS, her musical career, her future aspirations, and I promise to shut up and let her talk.
To advertisers out there:
If you have any special messages, events, services or products for helping people deal with MS, the MSBPodcast is the best, most effective way to reach out to them.
The National MS Society is considering getting into podcasting. Let's hope that all 'boutique disease' get into podcasting. (What a high-faluting way to say, you're sick and its not just a cold.) Its a way to get the word out to interested people in ways that traditional media can't.
Face it folks, traditional broadcast media and even cable television with their promise of community cable channels, have failed us all terribly, and not for reasons of cupidity, though that has been a real factor, but because transmission of the kind of information we MSers need simply isn't possible under the economic structures of the broadcast model of media.
If it was we'd be there already.
The "Race For MS" events barely rate a mention on the evening news on the day of the race itself. That simply isn't enough.
For regional MS Society Chapters, like those in New York and in New Jersey, the MSPodcast service can even be localized so you can get chapter news out to a specific region, state wide in any of the fifty states or ten provinces (Même le Québec peut avoir son propre canal de diffusion pour ses événements.) Guess I'll have to learn to write and speak proper Español next.
And I have a special incentive to drive our MS market.
Podcasting is The Magic Bullet. (©TM® :-)
The MSBPodcast reaches an otherwise invisible demographic, people with MS, without regard to any further demographic, geographic, psychographic or behavioristic marketing divisions. Instead of being merely one in twelve hundred, the membership is 100% in your marketplace.
The MSBPodcast does so without worrying about any schedule either for ad delivery or for ad duration.
You can write an ad, or I can write it for you, you can produce an audio or video spot, or I can do it for you, for your event, for your service or for your product, whenever there is something new to say.
The ad can persist for weeks until all of the audience is reached.
And they can be reached in a manner that is not annoying to them and when they are receptive to the messsage. Yeah, they can skip over it like TiVO, but it has not disappeared from the podcast. They can go back and get it when they need it.
Get in touch with Kiptronic.com (http://kiptronic.com/podcaster/ads/faq.do) for 15 to 60 second audio spots.
Send an email: sales@kiptronic.com or telephone: 415-573-9332 about getting your ads on the MSBPodcast.
For special projects, such as long audio or video pieces for your ads, send me an email: msb@artdogs.org or telephone: 718-813-6111 and we can set up your content.
And you don't have to worry about podfading like some shows.
I've got MS and its not going away but neither am I.
I'm not doing this alone and can ensure that the episodes will just keep on coming even though I can't predict my role in it.
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As an example of the kinds of savings that can be achieved: Out of the blue, I never asked for it, I received in the mail today (03/29/2006) a package (mailed on 03/27/2006) from MS Pathways on Betaseron (Interferon Beta-1b).
They used my address, never mind how they got it, but its hard to find us MSers, to spend $4.20 to send me a package about their drug/therapy. That's $4.20 and it was not the drug, just info about the drug.
I got a video tape, a DVD, (I imagine that its got the same content, I haven't played the tape,) a whole bunch of booklets and pages of 4 color printed material that I'm sure that it cost a great deal of money to produce, package, box up, mail (and it got to me slightly damaged.)
Great! After their arboricide, I now have a static version of the package. I'll probably never hear from them again and never know what they've done since that package got put together, just like I didn't have a clue about the incredible strides that had been made since my first attack. (I was still thinking that hospitals were using ACTH. That was enough to scare me into being healthy for fifteen years.)
So how much would it have cost to just send all the information, video and pdf files, as a part of the podcast?
They could have sent the latest and greatest version of it to all of my subscribers for maybe $0.025 per person, that's right, a pennies instead of $4.20, and kept it up to date to boot.
Or I could even have done a special show for them about their product.
The following day, I received another package in the mail for betaseron. It cost them $4.05 just to mail it.
Same story. Same price, same cost per patient, same cost savings by using this site.
Personally I use Rebif.
It had the least offensive self-administration regimen of the treatments available that I was aware of at the time.
Even with the RebiJect, its still a big "yeech" to inject myself.
I have this thing about my skin. I like it whole and without holes.
I'd like it better if they'd find a way to depress my immune system without having to depress me at the same time.
I'd volunteer for a trial for vaporised prion treatment, like from an inhaler. Or maybe they can find a way to soak it into a cigar. That I'd go for... :-)
Meh? ...
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Now, on with the show.
And what is the show?
Well, I've been hearing from some people and some MSers that I should not expect much in the way of user feedback. (Thanks to all the guys at BarkeyRex and special shout outs to Juliana for being an inspiration, to Rachel Knight for being an awesome writer and another inspiration, and all the other people I'm not mentioning, including a fellow MSer woman with amazingly lustrous, luminous skin that I met back in Ottawa, lo those many years ago.)
I'm thinking that one reason it happens is because most people put fear of speaking in public above almost anything else, including dying suddenly in some horrible freak accident. (I can just hear my mother saying: "While wearing dirty underwear.")
A long time ago, like 1983, or early '84, while I was in Bethesda, Mairyland, at IBM for a course, I overheard somebody giving a speech in front of some people at a Ramada Inn.
The poor man's voice was cracking and trembling; his timing on his introductory jokes was so far off that that was funny; and he was dying up at the podium, just dying. It might as well have been a pilory he'd been tied to and he was trying to duck rotten vegetables.
I'd have hated to do his laundry the next day because his flop sweat had probably soaked through to his overcoat.
Here's something I'd figured out years before, when I was playing my guitar in front of an audience.
Stage fright is what you get when performing or public speaking.
It never happens.
When you're facing a crowd, speaking or playing to more people that you're ever likely to meet in your living room, dont!
Nobody can be expected to speak to more than one person at a time.
The trick is to speak to one person (sometimes as if somebody's life depended on it, like you were making an empassioned plea, like Portia in "The Merchant of Venice",) and let the others just sort of ... listen in.
Pick one or two or at most three individuals in whatever crowd you're facing to communicate with, not to talk at, to communicate with.
And talk with them, play to them, play with them, make verbal love to them. (I don't advise making real love with anybody on stage, well not unless you're an exhibitionist, and not in the States. You'll find yourself in the hoosegow before you can detumesse.)
Let the other people who are there be voyeurs and get a contact high from being near the individual with whom you are speaking.
Later you can work on moving your focus to be a different person each time you look in a given direction.
That's how you achieve stage presense and avoid stage fright.
Start small and stay small, even though you're drawing a bigger and bigger crowd.
You're still playing to an audience of one and all the others are just eavesdropping.
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My, wasn't that instructive? I'm giving away all kinds of secrets today.
Now why would I do that? :-)
Is it because I plan to record interviews with people and intend do haul around my PMD670 and a couple of mikes around to lots of places and don't want you to be scared?
Could be...
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Now with email, people shouldn't have any excuse, right? Wrong!
Most people are as scared of writing as they are of speaking in public.
When you're writing you have to organize your thoughts and you don 't have the constant interplay of non-verbal cues to clue you into whether a message is being properly interpreted, despite its being imperfectly sent.
Usually, a comedy of errors ensues and that has been a staple of dinner theatre since Oscar Wilde wrote "The Importance of Being Earnest."
Good writing is hard. (As can be attested to by Mark Yashimoto Nemcoff, of "Pacific Coast Hellway" and "The Art Of Surfacing" fame, and by fellow MSer Rachel Knight of "altenativekitten" and "Begging Mercy, Offering Grace." renown.)
Filling an empty page is only the beginning of the battle.
Its merely the scaffold on which you hang an idea.
If you are lucky and have enough practice, you don't have to rewrite too often, too much or too drastically while you hunt for the mot juste or tour de phrase that will set your reader's minds agog, being stunned by your tranchant wit and your mordant insight.
Often you find a way to precisely express a thought, only to discover that its turned the entire surrounding paragraphs into utter gibberish.
Memes are mean, man.
Rewriting's tough.
People have trouble in English with deciding on timing.
They get tense over tenses.
English is also a hard language to spell in since words sometimes don't look like what they sound like. (French desn't suffer from that particular problem. There are pronounciation rules which mean that you may not know what a word means but you can be pretty sure of how to spell it in writing once you hear it and say it once you've seen it written down. You just don't have a clue as to what you're blathering on about.)
My advice to people on writing is to take their time and break out a thesaurus.
This has two benefits: 1) they get a wider vocabulary and 2) their writing usually has slowed down enough that they're able to construct meaningful sentences.
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I'm glad if I can get people to just write to me and say "Good show." (Thanks Walt, aka "DasGimp" out in Everett WA. and Sean of "The Detonators" right here in Joysey :-)
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But my earlier point about what it takes, how hard it is, to reach all of you listeners is a valid one.
As a society we shield ourselves in layers of paranoia and disconnect from one another in order to protect a concept we can scarcely define: Privacy.
It would all be so much more efficient if we could all just keep our IDs in some central networked MS registry.
But we didn't even have the technology until after the turn of the millenium and we've all grown up in an un-networked world.
So we're here, having to suffer, sometimes terribly alone, while people who want to help us are forced to wonder who we are and where we are.
The raison d'etre of this podcast is to be a meeting ground for those people trying to help and those who could use the help.
I'm not altruistic to the point of abnegation. I hope to do well as I do good.
But if I can keep someone of Josh Jacobson's of the JustJoshing Podcast's age from going through what I've gone through, the self-denial, the diagnosis, the recovery, the relapse, the partial recovery, the self-doubts, the self-recrimination, I'll consider that I've secured a place in a heaven I neither believe in or need.
God, if you exist, and if you're listening: "I'm doing all right; no doubt better than could be expected under the circumstances."
Here's what I've learned in all these years: The best way to predict the future is to invent it.
Its not something I can take credit for. Alan Kay wrote that some years ago about something completely different, but its the truest statement I know.
My future's so bright I gotta wear shades.
Now lets get out there and invent a cure for MS.
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I will be taking my voice off the wire and letting somebody else handle the show's reins, because you need to hear the message even more than I need to speak it. (Though it was fun and quite cathartic to do.)
But I am not the person to read you the MS news.
While I no longer speak well enough to be in podcasting, I do write well enough to script some of the episodes.
I know I can run things behind the scenes but the voice of MS needs to be healthy, clear, intelligible, and, for historical and psychological reasons, probably have a female range and tone.
Part of the purpose of starting this podcast was proving that it could find its intended audience. And it has. About 750 downloaded an episode, and the audience for the past three episode has been over a hundred, and all without any promotion.
You came looking for this information, and for most of you, in the unlikeliest place: iTunes.
Another part of the purpose was to prove that it could save advertiser's money and provide them with a wide range of options for advertising and marketing as part of an integrated marketing strategy and to do it all at a lower cost to them. It can save them that in stamps alone.
We MSers now have a viable channel to communicate with each other and with the various companies who manufacture drugs and other things, provide services and do a whole lot more, and they now have a channel to communicate with us.
I am on the look out for somebody who can read the news in such a way that its understandable and pleasant to listen to.
This implies being 'plugged into' the National MS Society and able to relate to people.
I'm opening the mikes to a contest for the Voice of MS. This is open to anybody who has MS and who can get to my recording studio/home-office in Jersey City, New Jersey, on a regular basis.
Get your entries in, call me at 718-813-6111 to record in person, via email and I'm working on getting Skype voice mail (skype name: msbpodcast) to work on this machine.
The first place is a paying job reading the news of MS and playing some podsafe tunes.
It will take at least an hour of air time a week and pay about $400 a month, plus you will be paid for reading for special events and/or doing voice-over ads.
You've got a voice; MSers now have a voice; lets combine the two.
That's enough for this week...
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Thursday, March 23, 2006
msb-0009 Feelthee Peekchures Monsieur?
Any listener feedback goes first so let me hear from you.
I know you're out there listening. I hit 160+ downloads on msb-0007 and msb-0008's stats are looking real good so far (I'm starting to write this a couple of days after releasing it.) I'll get back to this in the third half of the podcast.
Send me an email: msb@artdogs.org and you can call me what ever you want.
LibSyn.com is wonderful that way. I don't know who you are but I know you're out there.
I am not alone and that is a strangely powerful thing.
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Rachel Knight has just told about the MSYes Project; those are some videos on MS by MS'ers that you should definitely check out.
You can find it at http://msyesproject.blogspot.com/ Go check it out.
I can tell you that its some innovative work by MS'ers. VideoPodcasting is gowing in popularity on both sides of the pond.
I'm almost finished the book review for her. This is a good read. I'm more than a little awed. I'm studying the New York Times Review of Books as a template of sorts, so I do justice to the book.
I'm still working on the interview with Kaye Brewster (aka Polopop) and we're emailing across the pond, getting the interview into shape. Its hard to do the first time. We're sort of trying things out.
I'm still working on getting an interview with Ms Monaco of the LasciviousBiddies. I suspect its not going to happen quite yet.
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The logo font contest is still on, but tempus fugit folks.
C'mon folks. $50.00 in iTunes for finding a 'broken' caps font for me.
You can go back, download and play msb-0006 and msb-0007 for the details. (Ain't podcasting grand? :-)
Worse come to worst, I'll make up something that I sort of remember. But I'd rather use the real thing.
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I have the same request this week as last week.
Could you get yourselves on my Frapper map?
Its just down on the left hand side of the msb.libsyn.com page.
Just above that, you can Subscribe with iTunes.
Just above that, you can Email Me.
Just above that, you can fill out my simple little Audience survey.
And some comments (on the right-hand side) on the episode you liked, or didn't like, would help me guide my future episodes to reflect what you want.
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Now for the second half of this week's podcast.
The theme this week is smut; feelthee peekchures Monsieur?; prurient artifacts; "I'll know it when I see it" 'community standards violating' stuff.
What does this have to do with MS?
MS affects adults, or at least very late adolescents, and it hits them right at their core: the scaffolding of their inputs, the sensory nerves, and their outputs, the volutional nerves.
By eating away at the myelin that shields the nerves, our wacked out immune system can ultimately mess with our sex lives on both ends of the neurological spectrum, incoming and outgoing.
Now, I know that this is a subject that Americans shy away from.
Good thing that I'm a Québecois. We suffer no such embarassment or reticence.
There are historic reasons for this.
From the loss of La Nouvelle France by Montcalm to Wolfe on the Plains of Abraham in 1759 until the Revolution Tranquille of 1960, Québecois had little to do but enjoy their very limited incomes, and therefore play with themselves ... but not, by themselves.
Québecois were shut out of the economic life that was happening all around them and condemned to poverty and servitude.
Like the old joke goes: "If you didn't wake up with a hard-on Christmass morning, you had nothing to play with all day." And play we did.
Which is why we won "La Guerre Des Bercaux," (The War of the Cradle.)
By 1960 Québecois were rejecting the shakles both of the Catholic Church, which kept women enslaved to their uteri, involuntary conscripts in the war of the cradle, and of the state, imposed by "Les Vendus," (The Sell Outs,) the last of which was the extremely corrupt administration of 'Maurice Duplessis."
All right... There we were, an extremely liberal, unashamed, unabashed, unafraid people. And we rocked.
We'd just finished with 300 years of bull-shit and we weren't about to dig back under the blankets for anybody.
Screw tradition and screw institutions, including marriage. We don't need it.
Okay, what does this have to do with MS?
I have definitely noticed a reticence in the Anglo world to speak of what's between everybody's legs. And of what its attached to, a nervous system.
(I'm reminded of a story by Kurt Vonnegut "Welcome to the Monkey House", or was it something by Harlan Ellison, on "Ethical Birth Control" which desensitized people until you could kick them in the crotch while they were singing the national anthem and they wouldn't miss a beat.)
Anglos are very disfunctional. What kind of mind set can come up with hipocritical thinking like "Everybody does it, but we can't mention it, ever, to anybody!"
I spend at least a third of my life lying on my back or my sides in bed. Bet your ass I didn't stint on buying a mattress. Now I may spend the time but its not all spent sleeping. (And given the fact that there's now about 298 million Americans alive now, I don't think I'm alone in this.)
So what's with this reticence to talk about sex? The "adult conspiracy"?
All right... MS screws with the sensory pathways. Often sensations aren't the right intensity or the right location to perceive pleasure (and this can change drastically, dramatically, during an exacerbation) and the volitional structures don't cooperate in getting your body to do what you want.
On the perception side, sometimes your eyes don't see right, sometimes your ears don't hear right, sometimes you don't taste right or smell right (and smell is extremely important, we'll return to this in a second,) and sometimes it just doesn't feel right.
Partners are going to have to recognize this when they 'play.' What felt okay yesterday may not feel okay today. Hell! It may not feel like anything today. Pieces of your myelin are being abraided away by environmental factors as well being eaten by your over-eager and whacked-out immune system. (I've felt some weeks like I'd taken 'ethical birth control' and other weeks I was so sensitive that even the finest 400 thread-count sheets felt like coarse sandpaper.)
You have to talk. You have to communicate.
And this is the crucial third of your life. The third spent lying down. You can't be shy. You can't be demure. You can't just hope it will all be okay. Its your happiness. Its your parner's happiness. Don't blow it because you're tongue-tied, either of you.
All right: Smell is extremely important.
I picked both my wives because of their odor. They just smelt right to me and I must have
smelt right to them.
And don't think that my getting married twice is in any way suspect. I had twenty plus wonderful years with Claudette and life changed and we changed and now I'm living in another country with Lee. I changed, if I hadn't I wouldn't have, uh, changed.
Well, my life might have changed for other reasons but it doesn't take away from the twenty or so years I enjoyed with Claudette. Any more than it takes away from the time I have enjoyed so far with Lee.
Back to smells.
We have an expression in French "J'peu pas l'blairer!" I can't stand his/her stink.
Smell is a perception and with MS you have to be leery of any perception and of any change in perception. Perception, what you think about what you sensed, comes third, after sensation, what you thought you felt, and after reception, what your body felt.
With MS any of these steps in the chain becomes suspect. What is real may not be what you receive, what you sense or what you perceive.
That's why its so important to talk; to communicate. It opens up a sentient channel to discuss what you're perceiving, what you're sensing and what you're receiving.
Notice at no point have I talked about what you're feeling. Feelings are subjective and I make a conscious disconnect between the subjective and the objective.
I hope that this steers people towards discussion of what is real in their lives.
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Now were in the third half and I need some information on fatigue.
I've never experienced it myself, or at least I don't think so. I get tired after doing some things but I've never had to take a nap of felt like "je m'en retournais chez nous avec mon trou d'cul end'sou d'u bras" (I was dragging home with my ass-hole tucked under my arm.)
Like I said a few weeks back, I experience a lot of noise on the line and it really interferes with the signals (both incoming and outgoing) but I have been spared most of the other cognitive side effect of MS.
I need some feed-back on what the symptoms are. And I don't what a dry retelling of the pamphlets and drug company hand-outs. They have all sorts of issues to deal with and can't really tell me the truth.
How tired does MS make you?
Let me know. Send me an email to msb@artdogs.org
I'll let you know what people tell me.
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Now onto the fourth half.
I think that people are a little put off by how little MS content is actually on this site. I mean, apart from my own travails with the disease, its tended to be "touchy-feely" "good gosh, aren't I brave" BS to be tying myself to a weekly production schedule and doing this inspite of sounding the way I do.
That is shortly about to change.
In the second quarter of 2006, starting next week, I'm going to launch this site for real.
I'm finishing the seventh semester of my Bachelor's Degree at MCNY (Metropolitan College of New York,) and I'm using this as a case study for my business and for my media studies.
Its not that mass media are dead, or even ailing, it just that there is a new kid in town: podcasting.
It breaks all of the old "volumetric" rules.
Instead of advertising to only .0833% of the general population, and were they really watching right then and really receptive to the message at that time, this podcast's subscribers are 100% interested in MS and they have the luxury of getting it anywhere, anytime and listening or watching it anywhere, anytime when they're bound to be receptive and can even rewind parts of the podcast to make sure they got the information.
I'll be pitching the podcast to MS drug companies, MS services providers and MS organizations which, up 'til now, have hade no recourse when trying to get the word out about what they do and/or what they produce.
That should provide the podcast with ad revenue to use to find and fund content.
I'll be supporting MS activities and events in the New York area and, later, on a wider basis.
I'll be looking for opportunities to produce or run ads for the major drug companies and service providers.
I could run these ads as part of my show (up to 8 because I don't thing a show can bear more than that, nor can the audience.)
I could also run these as 'special releases' which would allow them to be as stand alone content. This would be like features on Avonex, Rebif, Copaxone, whatever.
These ads can be audio or video, for the iPod screen or HD TV.
I have about 80 people to reach for now.
What I'm concerned with is the editorial budget, what mix of content to ads, to run.
I'm currently thinking about 8 ads in an hour long show sounds about right. There can also be 'specials' featuring all about a particular drug or treatment or aid or service. I like this approach because we wouldn't 'kill' a show with ads.
Also my wife has offered to "tag team" on voice with me, (but I don't think that would work. She doesn't cut me any slack. ;-)
Or she has offered to stand in for my voice if it ever fails during an exacerbation, or if I get a bad cold like I did earlier this year.
Or I could eventually hire somebody to 'speak' for us the MSers. And then we have to think of what kind of voice to use...
Email me at msb@artdogs.org to tell me what you think.
To be honest, I've been nattering on to anybody and everybody about this, including some people whose judgement I really trust and respect, turning some of them onto podcasting, and the concensus is that its a sound concept.
I know you're out there listening. I hit 160+ downloads on msb-0007 and msb-0008's stats are looking real good so far (I'm starting to write this a couple of days after releasing it.) I'll get back to this in the third half of the podcast.
Send me an email: msb@artdogs.org and you can call me what ever you want.
LibSyn.com is wonderful that way. I don't know who you are but I know you're out there.
I am not alone and that is a strangely powerful thing.
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Rachel Knight has just told about the MSYes Project; those are some videos on MS by MS'ers that you should definitely check out.
You can find it at http://msyesproject.blogspot.com/ Go check it out.
I can tell you that its some innovative work by MS'ers. VideoPodcasting is gowing in popularity on both sides of the pond.
I'm almost finished the book review for her. This is a good read. I'm more than a little awed. I'm studying the New York Times Review of Books as a template of sorts, so I do justice to the book.
I'm still working on the interview with Kaye Brewster (aka Polopop) and we're emailing across the pond, getting the interview into shape. Its hard to do the first time. We're sort of trying things out.
I'm still working on getting an interview with Ms Monaco of the LasciviousBiddies. I suspect its not going to happen quite yet.
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The logo font contest is still on, but tempus fugit folks.
C'mon folks. $50.00 in iTunes for finding a 'broken' caps font for me.
You can go back, download and play msb-0006 and msb-0007 for the details. (Ain't podcasting grand? :-)
Worse come to worst, I'll make up something that I sort of remember. But I'd rather use the real thing.
----
I have the same request this week as last week.
Could you get yourselves on my Frapper map?
Its just down on the left hand side of the msb.libsyn.com page.
Just above that, you can Subscribe with iTunes.
Just above that, you can Email Me.
Just above that, you can fill out my simple little Audience survey.
And some comments (on the right-hand side) on the episode you liked, or didn't like, would help me guide my future episodes to reflect what you want.
----
Now for the second half of this week's podcast.
The theme this week is smut; feelthee peekchures Monsieur?; prurient artifacts; "I'll know it when I see it" 'community standards violating' stuff.
What does this have to do with MS?
MS affects adults, or at least very late adolescents, and it hits them right at their core: the scaffolding of their inputs, the sensory nerves, and their outputs, the volutional nerves.
By eating away at the myelin that shields the nerves, our wacked out immune system can ultimately mess with our sex lives on both ends of the neurological spectrum, incoming and outgoing.
Now, I know that this is a subject that Americans shy away from.
Good thing that I'm a Québecois. We suffer no such embarassment or reticence.
There are historic reasons for this.
From the loss of La Nouvelle France by Montcalm to Wolfe on the Plains of Abraham in 1759 until the Revolution Tranquille of 1960, Québecois had little to do but enjoy their very limited incomes, and therefore play with themselves ... but not, by themselves.
Québecois were shut out of the economic life that was happening all around them and condemned to poverty and servitude.
Like the old joke goes: "If you didn't wake up with a hard-on Christmass morning, you had nothing to play with all day." And play we did.
Which is why we won "La Guerre Des Bercaux," (The War of the Cradle.)
By 1960 Québecois were rejecting the shakles both of the Catholic Church, which kept women enslaved to their uteri, involuntary conscripts in the war of the cradle, and of the state, imposed by "Les Vendus," (The Sell Outs,) the last of which was the extremely corrupt administration of 'Maurice Duplessis."
All right... There we were, an extremely liberal, unashamed, unabashed, unafraid people. And we rocked.
We'd just finished with 300 years of bull-shit and we weren't about to dig back under the blankets for anybody.
Screw tradition and screw institutions, including marriage. We don't need it.
Okay, what does this have to do with MS?
I have definitely noticed a reticence in the Anglo world to speak of what's between everybody's legs. And of what its attached to, a nervous system.
(I'm reminded of a story by Kurt Vonnegut "Welcome to the Monkey House", or was it something by Harlan Ellison, on "Ethical Birth Control" which desensitized people until you could kick them in the crotch while they were singing the national anthem and they wouldn't miss a beat.)
Anglos are very disfunctional. What kind of mind set can come up with hipocritical thinking like "Everybody does it, but we can't mention it, ever, to anybody!"
I spend at least a third of my life lying on my back or my sides in bed. Bet your ass I didn't stint on buying a mattress. Now I may spend the time but its not all spent sleeping. (And given the fact that there's now about 298 million Americans alive now, I don't think I'm alone in this.)
So what's with this reticence to talk about sex? The "adult conspiracy"?
All right... MS screws with the sensory pathways. Often sensations aren't the right intensity or the right location to perceive pleasure (and this can change drastically, dramatically, during an exacerbation) and the volitional structures don't cooperate in getting your body to do what you want.
On the perception side, sometimes your eyes don't see right, sometimes your ears don't hear right, sometimes you don't taste right or smell right (and smell is extremely important, we'll return to this in a second,) and sometimes it just doesn't feel right.
Partners are going to have to recognize this when they 'play.' What felt okay yesterday may not feel okay today. Hell! It may not feel like anything today. Pieces of your myelin are being abraided away by environmental factors as well being eaten by your over-eager and whacked-out immune system. (I've felt some weeks like I'd taken 'ethical birth control' and other weeks I was so sensitive that even the finest 400 thread-count sheets felt like coarse sandpaper.)
You have to talk. You have to communicate.
And this is the crucial third of your life. The third spent lying down. You can't be shy. You can't be demure. You can't just hope it will all be okay. Its your happiness. Its your parner's happiness. Don't blow it because you're tongue-tied, either of you.
All right: Smell is extremely important.
I picked both my wives because of their odor. They just smelt right to me and I must have
smelt right to them.
And don't think that my getting married twice is in any way suspect. I had twenty plus wonderful years with Claudette and life changed and we changed and now I'm living in another country with Lee. I changed, if I hadn't I wouldn't have, uh, changed.
Well, my life might have changed for other reasons but it doesn't take away from the twenty or so years I enjoyed with Claudette. Any more than it takes away from the time I have enjoyed so far with Lee.
Back to smells.
We have an expression in French "J'peu pas l'blairer!" I can't stand his/her stink.
Smell is a perception and with MS you have to be leery of any perception and of any change in perception. Perception, what you think about what you sensed, comes third, after sensation, what you thought you felt, and after reception, what your body felt.
With MS any of these steps in the chain becomes suspect. What is real may not be what you receive, what you sense or what you perceive.
That's why its so important to talk; to communicate. It opens up a sentient channel to discuss what you're perceiving, what you're sensing and what you're receiving.
Notice at no point have I talked about what you're feeling. Feelings are subjective and I make a conscious disconnect between the subjective and the objective.
I hope that this steers people towards discussion of what is real in their lives.
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Now were in the third half and I need some information on fatigue.
I've never experienced it myself, or at least I don't think so. I get tired after doing some things but I've never had to take a nap of felt like "je m'en retournais chez nous avec mon trou d'cul end'sou d'u bras" (I was dragging home with my ass-hole tucked under my arm.)
Like I said a few weeks back, I experience a lot of noise on the line and it really interferes with the signals (both incoming and outgoing) but I have been spared most of the other cognitive side effect of MS.
I need some feed-back on what the symptoms are. And I don't what a dry retelling of the pamphlets and drug company hand-outs. They have all sorts of issues to deal with and can't really tell me the truth.
How tired does MS make you?
Let me know. Send me an email to msb@artdogs.org
I'll let you know what people tell me.
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Now onto the fourth half.
I think that people are a little put off by how little MS content is actually on this site. I mean, apart from my own travails with the disease, its tended to be "touchy-feely" "good gosh, aren't I brave" BS to be tying myself to a weekly production schedule and doing this inspite of sounding the way I do.
That is shortly about to change.
In the second quarter of 2006, starting next week, I'm going to launch this site for real.
I'm finishing the seventh semester of my Bachelor's Degree at MCNY (Metropolitan College of New York,) and I'm using this as a case study for my business and for my media studies.
Its not that mass media are dead, or even ailing, it just that there is a new kid in town: podcasting.
It breaks all of the old "volumetric" rules.
Instead of advertising to only .0833% of the general population, and were they really watching right then and really receptive to the message at that time, this podcast's subscribers are 100% interested in MS and they have the luxury of getting it anywhere, anytime and listening or watching it anywhere, anytime when they're bound to be receptive and can even rewind parts of the podcast to make sure they got the information.
I'll be pitching the podcast to MS drug companies, MS services providers and MS organizations which, up 'til now, have hade no recourse when trying to get the word out about what they do and/or what they produce.
That should provide the podcast with ad revenue to use to find and fund content.
I'll be supporting MS activities and events in the New York area and, later, on a wider basis.
I'll be looking for opportunities to produce or run ads for the major drug companies and service providers.
I could run these ads as part of my show (up to 8 because I don't thing a show can bear more than that, nor can the audience.)
I could also run these as 'special releases' which would allow them to be as stand alone content. This would be like features on Avonex, Rebif, Copaxone, whatever.
These ads can be audio or video, for the iPod screen or HD TV.
I have about 80 people to reach for now.
What I'm concerned with is the editorial budget, what mix of content to ads, to run.
I'm currently thinking about 8 ads in an hour long show sounds about right. There can also be 'specials' featuring all about a particular drug or treatment or aid or service. I like this approach because we wouldn't 'kill' a show with ads.
Also my wife has offered to "tag team" on voice with me, (but I don't think that would work. She doesn't cut me any slack. ;-)
Or she has offered to stand in for my voice if it ever fails during an exacerbation, or if I get a bad cold like I did earlier this year.
Or I could eventually hire somebody to 'speak' for us the MSers. And then we have to think of what kind of voice to use...
Email me at msb@artdogs.org to tell me what you think.
To be honest, I've been nattering on to anybody and everybody about this, including some people whose judgement I really trust and respect, turning some of them onto podcasting, and the concensus is that its a sound concept.
Friday, March 10, 2006
msb-0008 Richarding Around
We're starting off this podcast with The Detonators. They're a kick-ass band from Noo Joyzee that I first encountered at a bar here in Jersey City.
Yes, I'm definitely over 21 so I can go into a bar. My walking doesn't get any worse after a beer or two. It doesn't improve either ...sigh...
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Any listener feedback goes first so let me hear from you.
I know you're out there listening. I hit 150+ downloads today just on msb-0007.
LibSyn.com is wonderful that way. I don't know who you are but I know you're out there.
I am not alone and that is a strangely powerful thing.
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I'm still working on the interview with Kaye Brewster (aka Polopop) and we're emailing across the pond, getting the interview into shape.
I'm still working on the book review for AlternativeKitten. Its coming along nicely and I think I'll be video casting it. Blame her for that. But you will get to see my office :-) It was exhausting but its really worth it.
Quite apart from being well written, the character of Jehane aka Jenny grows on you as the chapters pass by, almost unnoticed. This is a good read. I'm a little awed. I'm studying the New York Times Review of Books as a template of sorts so I do justice to the book.
I'm still working on getting an interview with Ms Monaco of the LasciviousBiddies.
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Last episode was cut short by because GarageBand has a limit of 999 bars to an episode.
Who knew Bach's Tocata and Fugue took up so much space?
I've got iLife 06 installed on my G5 iMac so I'll have to check it out as soon as I get it into my new office. (Hooray...) I've been using my ol' TiTanium PowerBook to record all of my episodes up till now.
Yep! GarageBand 06 has about an hour before it poops out. It also has something for podasting so I'll check out how that affects my workflow.
Everything in my dark, dreary, dirty, dusty, old office (pictures one & two) is out.
It was hell. UPS delivered a bunch of boxes on Friday instead of Monday or Tuesday.
I have school Friday night and Saturday. I was counting on having Sunday to prepare the space... Wrong!
I am stuck with big cardboard boxes in my living room all week-end while I empty out my office.
And the bases for my two main storage towers, the file cabinets won't even get here until Tuesday.
I think the letters UPS stand for Unbelievably Poor Service. (One of the guys I go to school with worked for them. He said the letters sood for Under Paid Slaves. I'll defer to his insider perspective.)
The guys just dumped five big boxes in front of the building and wouldn't even take them inside.
The super of my building, Louis, is a really great kid (to me even thirty somethings are kids now,) because I was not even home when the packages came.
Thank heavens he managed to wrestle them inside. If he hadn't, well, I don't live in the best of neighbourhoods, even if I did, they'd still just lying in boxed on friggin' Jersey City streets. I'd probably have been ripped off for my furniture and screw the 3 grand I'd've coughed up.
I had a school test on Friday evening and some more tests on Saturday.
And I really hate the way UPS handled the deliveries. If that the kind of service you get after shelling out $295 delivery charge and $232 shipping charges? Grrr....
And it not as if I could handle the stuff by myself. I can just imagine if it had been raining or if I didn't have a super who was willing and able to help.
I hope they hear this podcast and hang their heads in shame. But the odds of that are small. First, they aren't likely to hear it with the MS demographic. Second, I doubt that they're aware of who their fathers are; or even their mothers.
Regardless, now it looks like this! (pictures three and four.)
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The logo font contest is still on.
C'mon folks. $50.00 in iTunes for finding a font for me.
You can go back and play msb-0006 and msb-0007 for the details. Ain't podcasting grand? :-)
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I have the same request this week as last week.
Could you get yourselves on my Frapper map?
Its just down on the left hand side of the msb.libsyn.com page.
Just above that, you can Subscribe with iTunes.
Just above that, you can Email Me.
Just above that, you can fill out my simple little Audience survey.
And some comments (on the right-hand side) on the episode you liked, or didn't like, would help me guide my future episodes to reflect what you want.
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Well, here go and today I feel like just having some fun.
First, its been freezing up here in Joyzee for the past week, like it was around Christmass time, so its not much of a stretch to pretend that "Its Jesus' Birthday."
Well, this next song goes out to my brother-in-lawn, sister, niece, grand-nephew and her hubby in Dallas Texas, because "Jesus Was a Cowboy."
I just love "Three Dead Trolls in a Baggie".
I'd play "Personal Jesus" by "Depeche Mode" but its copyright and the RIAA doesn't care that Depeche Mode is losing some exposure, they're just sue-happy and I'm not taking the chance.
But, in keeping with my evangelical theme this podcast, since I had the epiphany of podcasting, here's "Mambo Jesu" by Juba; another song from the original CD-ROM "101 of the best songs you've never heard" from the original MP3.com.
The protectionist alphabet of AA's can kiss my sick ol' ass. And if they try it, well I "don't swing that way" so here's the sound track to try do it to: "Northern Style Kung Fu" by "Micronaut" off of the same album.
Well now, I feel "Closer to the Animal" by "TheAliMan" also off of the same album.
I don't play much computer games but I love some of the music, like "Konoco Chase" by "Power of Seven (Bungie)".
Actually, I stopped playing computer games back in 1995 after Doom and Doom II. Didn't have the time or the inclination.
But many happy days were spent with Vassili in my apartment, the Mozart I think is was, back in Montreal.
Vassli was the brightest and best person I ever interviewed. He was Russian, (sitting on the throne reading my ex-wife's Russian for Dummies schoolbooks was useful in ways I'd never imagined,) and he was a fun job interview.
We kept asking him questions long after we decided to hire him (and we told him so too,) because he really knew object-oriented programming and Smalltalk. Last I heard from him, he was in California, still working for CinCom.
Damn, I've got a song clomping through my head in a pair of black Doc Martins'. Its "People who died" by the "Jim Carrol Band" You'll just have to take it from me that its a kick-ass punk rock song.
How about something podsafe instead.
That's enough fun for this episode. (Note I'm not saying when, since the time of day doesn't matter, or even the day, its a podcast. :-) I'm closing this episode with Marionette by the Two Star Symphony off of music.podshow.com.
Yes, I'm definitely over 21 so I can go into a bar. My walking doesn't get any worse after a beer or two. It doesn't improve either ...sigh...
----
Any listener feedback goes first so let me hear from you.
I know you're out there listening. I hit 150+ downloads today just on msb-0007.
LibSyn.com is wonderful that way. I don't know who you are but I know you're out there.
I am not alone and that is a strangely powerful thing.
----
I'm still working on the interview with Kaye Brewster (aka Polopop) and we're emailing across the pond, getting the interview into shape.
I'm still working on the book review for AlternativeKitten. Its coming along nicely and I think I'll be video casting it. Blame her for that. But you will get to see my office :-) It was exhausting but its really worth it.
Quite apart from being well written, the character of Jehane aka Jenny grows on you as the chapters pass by, almost unnoticed. This is a good read. I'm a little awed. I'm studying the New York Times Review of Books as a template of sorts so I do justice to the book.
I'm still working on getting an interview with Ms Monaco of the LasciviousBiddies.
----
Last episode was cut short by because GarageBand has a limit of 999 bars to an episode.
Who knew Bach's Tocata and Fugue took up so much space?
I've got iLife 06 installed on my G5 iMac so I'll have to check it out as soon as I get it into my new office. (Hooray...) I've been using my ol' TiTanium PowerBook to record all of my episodes up till now.
Yep! GarageBand 06 has about an hour before it poops out. It also has something for podasting so I'll check out how that affects my workflow.
Everything in my dark, dreary, dirty, dusty, old office (pictures one & two) is out.
It was hell. UPS delivered a bunch of boxes on Friday instead of Monday or Tuesday.
I have school Friday night and Saturday. I was counting on having Sunday to prepare the space... Wrong!
I am stuck with big cardboard boxes in my living room all week-end while I empty out my office.
And the bases for my two main storage towers, the file cabinets won't even get here until Tuesday.
I think the letters UPS stand for Unbelievably Poor Service. (One of the guys I go to school with worked for them. He said the letters sood for Under Paid Slaves. I'll defer to his insider perspective.)
The guys just dumped five big boxes in front of the building and wouldn't even take them inside.
The super of my building, Louis, is a really great kid (to me even thirty somethings are kids now,) because I was not even home when the packages came.
Thank heavens he managed to wrestle them inside. If he hadn't, well, I don't live in the best of neighbourhoods, even if I did, they'd still just lying in boxed on friggin' Jersey City streets. I'd probably have been ripped off for my furniture and screw the 3 grand I'd've coughed up.
I had a school test on Friday evening and some more tests on Saturday.
And I really hate the way UPS handled the deliveries. If that the kind of service you get after shelling out $295 delivery charge and $232 shipping charges? Grrr....
And it not as if I could handle the stuff by myself. I can just imagine if it had been raining or if I didn't have a super who was willing and able to help.
I hope they hear this podcast and hang their heads in shame. But the odds of that are small. First, they aren't likely to hear it with the MS demographic. Second, I doubt that they're aware of who their fathers are; or even their mothers.
Regardless, now it looks like this! (pictures three and four.)
----
The logo font contest is still on.
C'mon folks. $50.00 in iTunes for finding a font for me.
You can go back and play msb-0006 and msb-0007 for the details. Ain't podcasting grand? :-)
----
I have the same request this week as last week.
Could you get yourselves on my Frapper map?
Its just down on the left hand side of the msb.libsyn.com page.
Just above that, you can Subscribe with iTunes.
Just above that, you can Email Me.
Just above that, you can fill out my simple little Audience survey.
And some comments (on the right-hand side) on the episode you liked, or didn't like, would help me guide my future episodes to reflect what you want.
----
Well, here go and today I feel like just having some fun.
First, its been freezing up here in Joyzee for the past week, like it was around Christmass time, so its not much of a stretch to pretend that "Its Jesus' Birthday."
Well, this next song goes out to my brother-in-lawn, sister, niece, grand-nephew and her hubby in Dallas Texas, because "Jesus Was a Cowboy."
I just love "Three Dead Trolls in a Baggie".
I'd play "Personal Jesus" by "Depeche Mode" but its copyright and the RIAA doesn't care that Depeche Mode is losing some exposure, they're just sue-happy and I'm not taking the chance.
But, in keeping with my evangelical theme this podcast, since I had the epiphany of podcasting, here's "Mambo Jesu" by Juba; another song from the original CD-ROM "101 of the best songs you've never heard" from the original MP3.com.
The protectionist alphabet of AA's can kiss my sick ol' ass. And if they try it, well I "don't swing that way" so here's the sound track to try do it to: "Northern Style Kung Fu" by "Micronaut" off of the same album.
Well now, I feel "Closer to the Animal" by "TheAliMan" also off of the same album.
I don't play much computer games but I love some of the music, like "Konoco Chase" by "Power of Seven (Bungie)".
Actually, I stopped playing computer games back in 1995 after Doom and Doom II. Didn't have the time or the inclination.
But many happy days were spent with Vassili in my apartment, the Mozart I think is was, back in Montreal.
Vassli was the brightest and best person I ever interviewed. He was Russian, (sitting on the throne reading my ex-wife's Russian for Dummies schoolbooks was useful in ways I'd never imagined,) and he was a fun job interview.
We kept asking him questions long after we decided to hire him (and we told him so too,) because he really knew object-oriented programming and Smalltalk. Last I heard from him, he was in California, still working for CinCom.
Damn, I've got a song clomping through my head in a pair of black Doc Martins'. Its "People who died" by the "Jim Carrol Band" You'll just have to take it from me that its a kick-ass punk rock song.
How about something podsafe instead.
That's enough fun for this episode. (Note I'm not saying when, since the time of day doesn't matter, or even the day, its a podcast. :-) I'm closing this episode with Marionette by the Two Star Symphony off of music.podshow.com.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
msb-0007 Changes in Environment
Any listener feedback goes first so let me hear from you.
I know you're out there listening.
LibSyn.com is wonderful that way. I don't know who you are but I know you're out there.
I am not out here alone. That is a strangely powerful thing.
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I just heard on BiddyCast_065 that the guitarist of the Lacivious Biddies, Amanda Monaco, was diagnosed with MS in January 2005.
I reached out to her by email as a fellow MSer and a guitarist (in my case even an ex-guitarist.) I will be joining TeamBiddy and making a pledge.
She's in New York and I'm almost in Manhattan (in Jersey City.)
I'm trying to line up an interview with her. (Wish me luck. Or at least that it won't cost me too much. Musician don't turn their noses up at a paying gig. :-)
Maybe I could get her to play one of her own compositions. We'd all like that.
I'll explain my editing process later in the 'cast so you can a feel for what goes on and into producing one of these shows.
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Kaye just got back to me, (again with the Fozzie Bear voice: Yeah!) Look for some more news and interviews soon from Kaye real soon now. (She's wonderful. Yeah! I'm a fan. :-)
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I was listening to podcast411 and he had Matthew Ebel and Laura Clapp on. (Its a great podcast, and I'm not just saying that because he once ran my promo, so go and download it from http://www.podcast411.com.)
I was struck by how similar my life and Matthew Ebel's life ran, recording my own shows into my dad's Sony reel-to-reel tape deck, except that I ended up going deeper into computers, partly because there was no podcasting in those days.
But since podcasting is here now, I'm just loving it. I may not be able to play anymore but I don't have to merely cheer on from the sidelines.
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Still no winner to the 'prize question' for my listeners out there. (The episode hasn't been up there long enough and caught its peak download period yet, on wenesday. )
The winner will get a gift certificate for $50 bucks worth of iTunes.
I've been Googling (you didn't think I was going to make it easy, did you?) and I can't find out the answer to a simple little question:
"Who designed the "'broken M, broken S' logo" for the MS Society?"
Maybe it was just a Canadian thing, I don't really recall seeing it in the 'States, they seem to favor a rather florid cartouche here, but it was the most evocative one and descriptive of the effects and of the disease.
I think it was based on Helvetica bold, or some other sans-serif typeface, with a stripe of the upper right ligature of the M and the middle of the S blocked out (or that's how I replicated it in the '80s.)
Computer typography has moved on quite a bit since I started and I no longer have neither the typeface nor the tools I used to replicate it. Actually, I doubt it would still work even if I had it; I'd used PostScript 1; they're up to PostScript 3 I think. Its been a while since I followed it.
That's why I want to get a new version of it to use in the blog, the media and to give my late cat a chance to finally get some rest on the iTunes site.
Even a GIF or two of the 'MS' would probably do but I'd really love it if it was an entire typeface with the capitals 'blocked out.'
Remember, I need the typeface. Just telling me "Hermann Zapf" or "Milton Glazer" doesn't cut it. I need an email address where he/she or their studio can be reached.
Think on it.
$50 bucks at the iTunes Music Store, my eternal gratitude and a chance to beam proudly and point at it whenever you see the logo.
Got to be worth something, even if its only $50 bucks.
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I have the same request this week as last week.
Could you get yourselves on my Frapper map?
Its just down the left hand side of the msb.libsyn.com page
Just above that, you can Subscribe with iTunes.
Just above that, you can Email Me.
Just above that, you can fill out my simple little Audience survey.
Don't bother to vote for me on Podcast Alley. (Like, what was I thinking? With 0.0833% of the population having MS and this show being geared for us, the highest we could ever get is still 1/1,200. :-)
And some comments (on the right-hand side) on the episode you liked, or didn't like, would help me guide my future episodes to reflect what you want.
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Well, now I've done it.
My home office is changing. The thought I had a couple of episodes ago that I should get a shovel and scrape down to the floor with it turned into an inspiration, then a plan, and now its coming to fruition.
New furniture, new decor and an entirely new layout.
Its nice to have a credit card with a healthy limit. (The card has a healthy limit even if I dont.)
I just got off the web site. Yee-ouch! $2,989.68 with tax and shipping. (Yaaah! That's 3 grand. What am I nuts?)
I better be fuckin' nice, that's all I can say. Every time I go into that office, I'd better feel like I've having sex with Lucy Lawless, or Kate Moss or somethin'.
I think I'll take a couple of pictures before I crap it all up again and post them on this blog (http://multiplesclerosisblog.blogspot.com/) , on the poscast host (http://msb.libsyn.com/) and even include them in a copy of the 'cast for the iPod. (Its the .m4b file as opposed to the .mp3 file for non-iTunes subscribers.)
I'm going all out for you. (Well, okay, its for me too. ;^)
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Last week was about my business plan. Well the management précis there of anyway.
This week, I've just been re-listening to item 133 of podcast411 (go look for it in iTunes if you want to learn all kinds of stuff, or even better, feel smart when you don't learn all kinds of stuff,) and it was an interesting take on the mechanisms of monetising podcasting.
I'm proud to say that the direction I'm heading in seems to be aligned with what's happening in the advertising world; jumping on my horse and riding off in all directions at once.
There were two articles in the New York Times ("As Internet TV Aims at Niche Audiences, the Slivercast Is Born" & "Hungry Media Companies Find a Meager Menu of Web Sites to Buy") which confirm the fractionalization process that the internet is forcing on media chains:
With podcasting, I can guarantee that 100% my audience is at least interested in MS. You can't even think that with broadcasting. We're only 0.0833% of the population.
They might not think much of my eclectic and very indy taste in music, and if they don't, they can reply in the comments for that specifc episode, so I can shift to something they do want to hear, from country and western hurtin' songs to Tuvan throat singing.
I like anything as long as its done well and with passion, in the performance if not of the piece: Phillip Glass' Koyaanisqatsi being a case in point and She Wants Revenge Red Flags and Long Nights being another (both of which I just played while typing this section.)
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This week its about Changes in Environment.
Notice the lack of a definite article.
I know they don't have definite articles in Russian, but tovarisch, its not because I have any Russian roots. Spanish, si. Russian, nyet. My ex-wife once studied some Russian and, of course, I, being the print-a-holic I am, read her course material while sitting on the throne.
I wrote it that way because Changes in Environment are both for good and for bad.
Its a matter of how you react to them.
My own circumstances are pretty good.
I could have said pretty bad but MS is a strange disease.
It tends to leave you pretty optimistic, pretty upbeat, despite whatever environment you find yourself in.
I don't pretend to know much about MS. Specially not at the molecular-event level.
As to why it struck me?
Who the Hell knows?
I was just the one in twelve-hundred people who gets it.
Statistics are strange. They can tell you exactly what your odds might be without giving you any clue as to what is happening and certainly no hint as to why.
Maybe that's why I consider myself to be a godless bastard atheist.
And proud of it man. Proud of it.
In the lottery of life, I am just one in twelve-hundred.
That's all that MS means.
There's no message there; no crime, no retribution, no justice, no blame, no causal link, no smoking gun, no magic bullet.
I was not struck down; smitten for some terrible unnatural act. I have no sin to be expiated.
I'm just one in twelve hundred.
It doesn't mean anything.
If you're listening to this, you're probably similarly afflicted, and probably on either side of the health scale from me.
But I'm pretty sure you've reached the same conclusions about yourself and your place in the wider scheme of things.
We all just have roles to play and people we relate to in the commission or execution of those roles.
Now lets get back on topic: Changes in Environment.
We can take an omnibus approach and just describe it as to or for, by, with or from, both the real, physical or the unreal, spiritual space we inhabit.
I have lived my life knowing that everything was about to change.
I expect it.
Hell I demand it.
I have no respect for a static lifestyle or for the people who lead them.
Sometimes change found me on my back in a hospital, rediscovering how to swallow.
Sometimes change found me sitting at this keyboard plotting how to make these podcasts a commercial / financial success.
Multiple Sclerosis needs at least one.
Muscular Dystrophy needs at least one.
Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS), a.k.a. Lou Gehrig's disease, needs at least one.
Hell, every disease or disability needs at least one.
Can you see the environment into which this is leading my business plan?
Because of what I discovered about myself and about how the world works during the first kinds of changes, I used the down-time provided by my clapped out nervous system to plan, well plan might be overstating it, to adjust my reactions and give my life direction about how I handle myself during the other kinds of changes.
We find ourselves coping with constant change in environment, both internal and external.
In my case its episodic. For some its degenerative. Personally, I'm much happier with episodic. I'd hate to think that, as lousy as I feel some mornings, that that was the best I was going to feel all day.
I must say that some days, it feels like I'm on a fools' errand with this blog and with podcast and the whole business plan thing.
But that doesn't last long and I am able to gather up my strength and go on with Mein kampf.
We struggle daily with changes in environment both external and internal.
The external environment is basically because we are all 1 in 1,200. That is too small a minority to ever get enough media attention to grab the public attention.
Most advances in MS research have happened serendipitously in the process of research that was being conducted for something else, like AIDS or cancer or diabetes research or even in something as mundane as, say, finding treatment for toe nail fungus. (Do the math. Every body's got ten toenails. Only 1 person in 1,200 gets MS.)
But anything that helps, uh, helps.
The internal environment is something else. Its the burning feet of Montel Williams and others. Its my own freezing feet. At various times, I've had impaired vision, hearing, smell, taste and various senses of touch, like pressure and temperature.
I can understand the physiological changes that result in neurological changes that result in sensory changes.
The psychological effects of changes in our sensation are both a curse and a blessing.
Yes, I hate to feel like I'm standing in a champagne bucket all of the time. I hate it but I can't change it so I've adapted to it (or at least learned to ignore it because I know its not real, unless I am standing in a champagne bucket.)
Yes, I hate to feel like my physical bundaries are set outside of my somatic box which causes me some spasticity. The control structures of my body, my soma, are not in line the real boundaries of my body. My kinesthetic sense gets all screwed up, I reach too far for a glass or for my socks, and that also causes me to rock and to sometimes fall.
But that's just the effects on the feedback or somatic loop.
What I really hate is the effects of MS on my volitional control structures.
The interference of the MS on the signals I send to tell my legs to move one way or another, I used to be a dancer, or even to guide my fingers to pick a particular string, I used to be a guitarist, or to type a particular key, I used to type effortlessly and with accuracy, is a big PainInTheAss.
I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that its going to be allright or that I wouldn't change it.
I'd change it in a New York second.
I'm friggin' hoping that the medical researchers find a way to undo the past damage and remyelinate my frayed wiring and make all of this just go away.
But until and unless they do, I'm going to cope and live as best I can with the changes MS has brought to my cabling.
Yes. My body has MS.
It has put me through changes in my internal and external environments but it has not changed me.
And that is the hopeful message of this week.
I'm no inspirational or motivational speaker, or even Dr. Waine Dyer begging for our money on PBS. I'm pretty sure that I'm too friggin' busy to be one.
But I will tell you this: Keep on truckin'
Because you've got no other choice except to lay down your sword in defeat and there is nobody to accept any surrender.
Ms. Monaco, may you triumph where I've had to declare a draw.
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It's later now and I'm going to get back to discussing about how these shows get put together.
The writing and recording process for these shows is a little different than just sitting down in front of a mike and streaming some chat and some tunes at you.
That's what you get from the MP3, a single stream.
But its actually a lot choppier than that and evolves over the week, or in some cases weeks, that I spend putting together the material.
Picking the music, usually with each song conveying more than one message so that it can work on several levels over several listenings, is a little more complicated than just putting something on that I hope you'll like.
I mean, I hope you like it, but I select songs that will continue to provide thoughtful entertainment over time. It should work over several moods and through several listening sessions.
The show's theme evolves over the time that I put into it. It is sometimes a reaction to an event, like learning on Friday afternoon that Ms. Monaco has MS.
The blog text is not carved into stone until I commit it and the recording of the audio takes me at least a day, partly because of my own MS.
I will admit that I would do a better job of it if I had a prompter system instead of reading the blog entry and trying to convey the same level of emotion that went into writing the piece in the first place. (Note to self: put together a prompter system. The design for one should occupy me for a day or two. Then who knows how long it will take for me to actually construct it. ;-)
It gets pretty awkward because I'm a very parenthetical thinker and writer and have straighten the whole mess out and screw with the text trying to turn it into a monologue.
----
I used to be the kind of boy that mother's warned their daughters about, and that girls would pass on to their friends when they couldn't take it anymore; with a recommendation slash warning: "He's all hands ... and lips ... and ...".
I know that I'm still handsome enough to try my hand at video blogging.
You can thank AlternativeKitten aka Rachell Knight, who's book "Begging for Mercy Offering Grace" is on my desktop right now, for tempting me into that.
You'll probably be subjected to a video of my living room and of my own not so humble self, sitting there with my red cane, pontificating, as I is my want.
But its got to be something more than that. I never did anything gratuitously. I'm thinking... I'm thinking...
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P.S. To AT&T and the other telco greedy sums-a-bee-at-ches:
Go ahead. Implement your tiered internet.
I don't care. I can upload and people can download the episodes on the cheap. You'd kill streamed media and I really wouldn't care.
Hell! Charge by the packet too if you think you can get away with it.
That's what used to happen to me when I was connecting with X.25 in Ottawa, Ontario, Canada.
$900/month telephone bills for me, alone, by myself, to connect to CompuServe.
Go on and grind all communications to a halt.
Well see how long that lasts.
Your butts will be regulated into acting sensibly in no time. (Again, Ma Bell. Again. Did you think we'd forgot? You got split up because otherwise we'd still be stuck back in the 'fifties.)
You know why you're facing re-regulation?
Because the military created the internet, over your incredulous objections about packet switching I might add, funded it, prosletised it and now the 'net and the web are very big business.
Much bigger than your business. You're just selling access to buried fibre. That's it! If fact, you ripped us off by charging us for fibre to the home that you never delivered.
Go on. Try charging like you could thirty years ago.
You'll end up begging to sell your shares, because you're a commodity. (But of course, the stockbrokers won't be calling you back; you charge too much.)
The root of commodity is commode. That's French for convenient. But you're trying to be inconvenient. Just like in the past... Forget it. Its not happening...
You can buy politicians for a while but they're eventually tossed out.
I know you're out there listening.
LibSyn.com is wonderful that way. I don't know who you are but I know you're out there.
I am not out here alone. That is a strangely powerful thing.
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I just heard on BiddyCast_065 that the guitarist of the Lacivious Biddies, Amanda Monaco, was diagnosed with MS in January 2005.
I reached out to her by email as a fellow MSer and a guitarist (in my case even an ex-guitarist.) I will be joining TeamBiddy and making a pledge.
She's in New York and I'm almost in Manhattan (in Jersey City.)
I'm trying to line up an interview with her. (Wish me luck. Or at least that it won't cost me too much. Musician don't turn their noses up at a paying gig. :-)
Maybe I could get her to play one of her own compositions. We'd all like that.
I'll explain my editing process later in the 'cast so you can a feel for what goes on and into producing one of these shows.
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Kaye just got back to me, (again with the Fozzie Bear voice: Yeah!) Look for some more news and interviews soon from Kaye real soon now. (She's wonderful. Yeah! I'm a fan. :-)
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I was listening to podcast411 and he had Matthew Ebel and Laura Clapp on. (Its a great podcast, and I'm not just saying that because he once ran my promo, so go and download it from http://www.podcast411.com.)
I was struck by how similar my life and Matthew Ebel's life ran, recording my own shows into my dad's Sony reel-to-reel tape deck, except that I ended up going deeper into computers, partly because there was no podcasting in those days.
But since podcasting is here now, I'm just loving it. I may not be able to play anymore but I don't have to merely cheer on from the sidelines.
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Still no winner to the 'prize question' for my listeners out there. (The episode hasn't been up there long enough and caught its peak download period yet, on wenesday. )
The winner will get a gift certificate for $50 bucks worth of iTunes.
I've been Googling (you didn't think I was going to make it easy, did you?) and I can't find out the answer to a simple little question:
"Who designed the "'broken M, broken S' logo" for the MS Society?"
Maybe it was just a Canadian thing, I don't really recall seeing it in the 'States, they seem to favor a rather florid cartouche here, but it was the most evocative one and descriptive of the effects and of the disease.
I think it was based on Helvetica bold, or some other sans-serif typeface, with a stripe of the upper right ligature of the M and the middle of the S blocked out (or that's how I replicated it in the '80s.)
Computer typography has moved on quite a bit since I started and I no longer have neither the typeface nor the tools I used to replicate it. Actually, I doubt it would still work even if I had it; I'd used PostScript 1; they're up to PostScript 3 I think. Its been a while since I followed it.
That's why I want to get a new version of it to use in the blog, the media and to give my late cat a chance to finally get some rest on the iTunes site.
Even a GIF or two of the 'MS' would probably do but I'd really love it if it was an entire typeface with the capitals 'blocked out.'
Remember, I need the typeface. Just telling me "Hermann Zapf" or "Milton Glazer" doesn't cut it. I need an email address where he/she or their studio can be reached.
Think on it.
$50 bucks at the iTunes Music Store, my eternal gratitude and a chance to beam proudly and point at it whenever you see the logo.
Got to be worth something, even if its only $50 bucks.
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I have the same request this week as last week.
Could you get yourselves on my Frapper map?
Its just down the left hand side of the msb.libsyn.com page
Just above that, you can Subscribe with iTunes.
Just above that, you can Email Me.
Just above that, you can fill out my simple little Audience survey.
Don't bother to vote for me on Podcast Alley. (Like, what was I thinking? With 0.0833% of the population having MS and this show being geared for us, the highest we could ever get is still 1/1,200. :-)
And some comments (on the right-hand side) on the episode you liked, or didn't like, would help me guide my future episodes to reflect what you want.
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Well, now I've done it.
My home office is changing. The thought I had a couple of episodes ago that I should get a shovel and scrape down to the floor with it turned into an inspiration, then a plan, and now its coming to fruition.
New furniture, new decor and an entirely new layout.
Its nice to have a credit card with a healthy limit. (The card has a healthy limit even if I dont.)
I just got off the web site. Yee-ouch! $2,989.68 with tax and shipping. (Yaaah! That's 3 grand. What am I nuts?)
I better be fuckin' nice, that's all I can say. Every time I go into that office, I'd better feel like I've having sex with Lucy Lawless, or Kate Moss or somethin'.
I think I'll take a couple of pictures before I crap it all up again and post them on this blog (http://multiplesclerosisblog.blogspot.com/) , on the poscast host (http://msb.libsyn.com/) and even include them in a copy of the 'cast for the iPod. (Its the .m4b file as opposed to the .mp3 file for non-iTunes subscribers.)
I'm going all out for you. (Well, okay, its for me too. ;^)
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Last week was about my business plan. Well the management précis there of anyway.
This week, I've just been re-listening to item 133 of podcast411 (go look for it in iTunes if you want to learn all kinds of stuff, or even better, feel smart when you don't learn all kinds of stuff,) and it was an interesting take on the mechanisms of monetising podcasting.
I'm proud to say that the direction I'm heading in seems to be aligned with what's happening in the advertising world; jumping on my horse and riding off in all directions at once.
There were two articles in the New York Times ("As Internet TV Aims at Niche Audiences, the Slivercast Is Born" & "Hungry Media Companies Find a Meager Menu of Web Sites to Buy") which confirm the fractionalization process that the internet is forcing on media chains:
- the demise of the broad, but forcably content-less, channel, leading to the rise of the special interest channels, and
- the demise of the broad but limited interest advertising channel, leading to the high-focus, high-content, high-context content aggregating ad-space.
With podcasting, I can guarantee that 100% my audience is at least interested in MS. You can't even think that with broadcasting. We're only 0.0833% of the population.
They might not think much of my eclectic and very indy taste in music, and if they don't, they can reply in the comments for that specifc episode, so I can shift to something they do want to hear, from country and western hurtin' songs to Tuvan throat singing.
I like anything as long as its done well and with passion, in the performance if not of the piece: Phillip Glass' Koyaanisqatsi being a case in point and She Wants Revenge Red Flags and Long Nights being another (both of which I just played while typing this section.)
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This week its about Changes in Environment.
Notice the lack of a definite article.
I know they don't have definite articles in Russian, but tovarisch, its not because I have any Russian roots. Spanish, si. Russian, nyet. My ex-wife once studied some Russian and, of course, I, being the print-a-holic I am, read her course material while sitting on the throne.
I wrote it that way because Changes in Environment are both for good and for bad.
Its a matter of how you react to them.
My own circumstances are pretty good.
I could have said pretty bad but MS is a strange disease.
It tends to leave you pretty optimistic, pretty upbeat, despite whatever environment you find yourself in.
I don't pretend to know much about MS. Specially not at the molecular-event level.
As to why it struck me?
Who the Hell knows?
I was just the one in twelve-hundred people who gets it.
Statistics are strange. They can tell you exactly what your odds might be without giving you any clue as to what is happening and certainly no hint as to why.
Maybe that's why I consider myself to be a godless bastard atheist.
And proud of it man. Proud of it.
In the lottery of life, I am just one in twelve-hundred.
That's all that MS means.
There's no message there; no crime, no retribution, no justice, no blame, no causal link, no smoking gun, no magic bullet.
I was not struck down; smitten for some terrible unnatural act. I have no sin to be expiated.
I'm just one in twelve hundred.
It doesn't mean anything.
If you're listening to this, you're probably similarly afflicted, and probably on either side of the health scale from me.
But I'm pretty sure you've reached the same conclusions about yourself and your place in the wider scheme of things.
We all just have roles to play and people we relate to in the commission or execution of those roles.
Now lets get back on topic: Changes in Environment.
We can take an omnibus approach and just describe it as to or for, by, with or from, both the real, physical or the unreal, spiritual space we inhabit.
I have lived my life knowing that everything was about to change.
I expect it.
Hell I demand it.
I have no respect for a static lifestyle or for the people who lead them.
Sometimes change found me on my back in a hospital, rediscovering how to swallow.
Sometimes change found me sitting at this keyboard plotting how to make these podcasts a commercial / financial success.
Multiple Sclerosis needs at least one.
Muscular Dystrophy needs at least one.
Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS), a.k.a. Lou Gehrig's disease, needs at least one.
Hell, every disease or disability needs at least one.
Can you see the environment into which this is leading my business plan?
Because of what I discovered about myself and about how the world works during the first kinds of changes, I used the down-time provided by my clapped out nervous system to plan, well plan might be overstating it, to adjust my reactions and give my life direction about how I handle myself during the other kinds of changes.
We find ourselves coping with constant change in environment, both internal and external.
In my case its episodic. For some its degenerative. Personally, I'm much happier with episodic. I'd hate to think that, as lousy as I feel some mornings, that that was the best I was going to feel all day.
I must say that some days, it feels like I'm on a fools' errand with this blog and with podcast and the whole business plan thing.
But that doesn't last long and I am able to gather up my strength and go on with Mein kampf.
We struggle daily with changes in environment both external and internal.
The external environment is basically because we are all 1 in 1,200. That is too small a minority to ever get enough media attention to grab the public attention.
Most advances in MS research have happened serendipitously in the process of research that was being conducted for something else, like AIDS or cancer or diabetes research or even in something as mundane as, say, finding treatment for toe nail fungus. (Do the math. Every body's got ten toenails. Only 1 person in 1,200 gets MS.)
But anything that helps, uh, helps.
The internal environment is something else. Its the burning feet of Montel Williams and others. Its my own freezing feet. At various times, I've had impaired vision, hearing, smell, taste and various senses of touch, like pressure and temperature.
I can understand the physiological changes that result in neurological changes that result in sensory changes.
The psychological effects of changes in our sensation are both a curse and a blessing.
Yes, I hate to feel like I'm standing in a champagne bucket all of the time. I hate it but I can't change it so I've adapted to it (or at least learned to ignore it because I know its not real, unless I am standing in a champagne bucket.)
Yes, I hate to feel like my physical bundaries are set outside of my somatic box which causes me some spasticity. The control structures of my body, my soma, are not in line the real boundaries of my body. My kinesthetic sense gets all screwed up, I reach too far for a glass or for my socks, and that also causes me to rock and to sometimes fall.
But that's just the effects on the feedback or somatic loop.
What I really hate is the effects of MS on my volitional control structures.
The interference of the MS on the signals I send to tell my legs to move one way or another, I used to be a dancer, or even to guide my fingers to pick a particular string, I used to be a guitarist, or to type a particular key, I used to type effortlessly and with accuracy, is a big PainInTheAss.
I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that its going to be allright or that I wouldn't change it.
I'd change it in a New York second.
I'm friggin' hoping that the medical researchers find a way to undo the past damage and remyelinate my frayed wiring and make all of this just go away.
But until and unless they do, I'm going to cope and live as best I can with the changes MS has brought to my cabling.
Yes. My body has MS.
It has put me through changes in my internal and external environments but it has not changed me.
And that is the hopeful message of this week.
I'm no inspirational or motivational speaker, or even Dr. Waine Dyer begging for our money on PBS. I'm pretty sure that I'm too friggin' busy to be one.
But I will tell you this: Keep on truckin'
Because you've got no other choice except to lay down your sword in defeat and there is nobody to accept any surrender.
Ms. Monaco, may you triumph where I've had to declare a draw.
----
It's later now and I'm going to get back to discussing about how these shows get put together.
The writing and recording process for these shows is a little different than just sitting down in front of a mike and streaming some chat and some tunes at you.
That's what you get from the MP3, a single stream.
But its actually a lot choppier than that and evolves over the week, or in some cases weeks, that I spend putting together the material.
Picking the music, usually with each song conveying more than one message so that it can work on several levels over several listenings, is a little more complicated than just putting something on that I hope you'll like.
I mean, I hope you like it, but I select songs that will continue to provide thoughtful entertainment over time. It should work over several moods and through several listening sessions.
The show's theme evolves over the time that I put into it. It is sometimes a reaction to an event, like learning on Friday afternoon that Ms. Monaco has MS.
The blog text is not carved into stone until I commit it and the recording of the audio takes me at least a day, partly because of my own MS.
I will admit that I would do a better job of it if I had a prompter system instead of reading the blog entry and trying to convey the same level of emotion that went into writing the piece in the first place. (Note to self: put together a prompter system. The design for one should occupy me for a day or two. Then who knows how long it will take for me to actually construct it. ;-)
It gets pretty awkward because I'm a very parenthetical thinker and writer and have straighten the whole mess out and screw with the text trying to turn it into a monologue.
----
I used to be the kind of boy that mother's warned their daughters about, and that girls would pass on to their friends when they couldn't take it anymore; with a recommendation slash warning: "He's all hands ... and lips ... and ...".
I know that I'm still handsome enough to try my hand at video blogging.
You can thank AlternativeKitten aka Rachell Knight, who's book "Begging for Mercy Offering Grace" is on my desktop right now, for tempting me into that.
You'll probably be subjected to a video of my living room and of my own not so humble self, sitting there with my red cane, pontificating, as I is my want.
But its got to be something more than that. I never did anything gratuitously. I'm thinking... I'm thinking...
----
P.S. To AT&T and the other telco greedy sums-a-bee-at-ches:
Go ahead. Implement your tiered internet.
I don't care. I can upload and people can download the episodes on the cheap. You'd kill streamed media and I really wouldn't care.
Hell! Charge by the packet too if you think you can get away with it.
That's what used to happen to me when I was connecting with X.25 in Ottawa, Ontario, Canada.
$900/month telephone bills for me, alone, by myself, to connect to CompuServe.
Go on and grind all communications to a halt.
Well see how long that lasts.
Your butts will be regulated into acting sensibly in no time. (Again, Ma Bell. Again. Did you think we'd forgot? You got split up because otherwise we'd still be stuck back in the 'fifties.)
You know why you're facing re-regulation?
Because the military created the internet, over your incredulous objections about packet switching I might add, funded it, prosletised it and now the 'net and the web are very big business.
Much bigger than your business. You're just selling access to buried fibre. That's it! If fact, you ripped us off by charging us for fibre to the home that you never delivered.
Go on. Try charging like you could thirty years ago.
You'll end up begging to sell your shares, because you're a commodity. (But of course, the stockbrokers won't be calling you back; you charge too much.)
The root of commodity is commode. That's French for convenient. But you're trying to be inconvenient. Just like in the past... Forget it. Its not happening...
You can buy politicians for a while but they're eventually tossed out.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
msb-0006 What's the Plan Stan?
DasGimp aka Walt gave me some feedback. [In my best Fozzie Bear voice: "Yeah!!"]
Thanks for the email.
I have a request and its the same this week as last week.
Could you get yourselves on my Frapper map?
Its just down the left hand side of the msb.libsyn.com page.
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Just above that, you can Subscribe with iTunes.
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Just above that, you can Email Me.
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Just above that, you can fill out my simple little Audience survey.
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And some comments left on the episode you liked, or didn't like, would help me guide my future episodes to reflect what you want.
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Here is a 'prize question' for my listeners out there. (Like, who else could possibly answer?)
The winner will get a gift certificate for $50 bucks worth of iTunes.
I've been Googling since yesterday (you didn't think I was going to make it easy, did you?) and I can't find out the answer to a simple little question:
"Who designed the "'broken M, broken S' logo" for the MS Society?"
Maybe it was just a Canadian thing, I don't really recall seeing it in the 'States, they seem to favor a rather florid cartouche here, but it was the most evocative one and descriptive of the effects and of the disease.
I think it was based on Helvetica bold, or some other sans-serif typeface, with a stripe of the upper right ligature of the M and the middle of the S blocked out (or that's how I replicated it in the '80s.)
Computer typography has moved on quite a bit since I started and I no longer have neither the typeface nor the tools I used to replicate it. Actually, I doubt it would still work even if I had it; I'd used PostScript 1; they're up to PostScript 3 I think. Its been a while since I followed it.
That's why I want to get a new version of it to use in the blog, the media and to give my late cat a chance to finally get some rest on the iTunes site.
Even a GIF or two of the 'MS' would probably do but I'd really love it if it was an entire typeface with the capitals 'blocked out.'
Remember, I need the typeface. Just telling me "Hermann Zapf" or "Milton Glazer" doesn't cut it. I need an email address where he/she or their studio can be reached.
Think on it.
$50 bucks at the iTunes Music Store, my eternal gratitude and a chance to beam proudly and point at it whenever you see the logo.
Got to be worth something, even if its only $50 bucks.
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On with the show.
I did some research, crunched some numbers, checked my finances and I came to a conclusion.
I needed a business plan, complete with spread sheets, market stats, operational plans, the works (I must say that I found a template to follow at score.org.)
Here now is the exerpted management précis:
Podcasting, the iTunes Music Store, RSS feeds, MP3s, show subscription statistics, individual show circulation statistics and content related to multiple sclerosis (MS) are at the heart of modern targeted advertising and at the heart of my business.
These things are the demystifying factors which enable people with MS as well as people who care about people with MS and people who care for people with MS, to easily and simply access the media and to access content.
A couple of clicks and these people are listening to, and possibly viewing, the MSB Podcasts, complete with ads focused on the MS market needs.
Product, customers and audience.
My product will be a podshow which can feature ads focused on people who have MS, people who care about people who have MS, or people who care for people who have MS, in addition to content on and about MS, and more.
This kind of focused advertising has never been possible before with the mass media. The expected rate of returns was simply to low to consider advertising, yet the products and services were needed by this audience.
My customers will be the pharmacological houses and the service providers who make products or provide services for people with MS, a market that has to date been neglected.
My audience will be people who have MS, people who care about people who have MS, or people who care for people who have MS.
This gives me wide latitude as to the actual show content which will span the gamut of news, view, reviews, interviews, special events and many other other things related to multiple sclerosis.
Ownership:
I am the sole owner of this show and of its related websites. I am the sole owner of the studio and mobile podcast production, and of the web production equipment, studio and ancillary facilities.
Future prospects for podcasting:
The future holds great promise for this kind of media.
It will take its place along side specialized print publications and provide new venues for soliciting comments and content that the print media could not and would not solicit for publication.
Company websites do not mention competition. Its not good business. But podcasts can.
Company websites do not mention other websites that are ancillary. Its not good business. But podcasts can.
Newsletters are static, limited in their print-budget (the mix of content, and of the kinds of content, to advertising,) of limited duration and accessibility and, speaking from personal experience as I produced a newsletter for the Ottawa chapter of the MS society, can't respond to the subscribers and can't really entertain while disseminating information.
Podcasts can act as aggregators and disseminators of a whole range of information from specifics treatments to MS Society gatherings anywhere in the world, and can do so with a mix of entertainment needed by the audience.
They are time-shifted, location-shifted, persistent distribution of show content. Think of them as an audio or video Tivo on steroids, for a specific marketplace.
Reason for this business plan:
I am not applying for financing, a loan of for financial assistance of any form at the current stage of the evolution of the podcast.
If I would be applying for a loan, I would state clearly how much I wanted, precisely how I was going to use it to update my facilities and/or equipment, to to hire any staff, and precisely how any money provided would used to make my business more profitable, thereby ensuring repayment.
At the moment, no such funding is required.
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Sounds great doesn't it?
Its not going to make me a rich man.
I'd have to capture the entire market.
According to the MS Society there are 250,000 people with MS in North America, there are about 80 makers of MS products, at $50/M impressions, my schedule permits 52 shows/year, giving 250k*80*$50/k*52 = $52,000,000/year in advertising revenue; which would be utterly impossible with each show consisting of at least 40 minutes of ads and no content whatsoever. It wouldn't be worth listening to twice and I couldn't see doing so even once.
Actually, given the ratio of people with MS to the general population, abouty 1,200 to 1 (0.0083% of the population) and the number of iPods sold (according to MacWorld thet is about 42,000,000,000 as of this writing) ceteriparibus I can estimate that about 3,500 of them have or will develop MS.
Fortunately for my business plan, there are a lot more copies of iTunes and people who can access the iTunes Music Store in circulation and every PC sold can play MP3s so market size is not an issue. The number of MP3 playing PCs is in the hundreds of millions and their geographic distribution is almost total.
If I'm lucky, I might get 5% of the market (12,500), 10% of the advertisers (8) and charge half the going rate ($25/k impressions) for 52 shows/year. ($130,000)
A nice chunk of change from which I can then deduct all of my expenses for printing, advertising, studio equipment, accounting fees and auditing fees, LibSyn fees, Kiptronic fees, mobile recording equipment, transportation and travel expenses, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah, pay a chunk to the gummint and then I can mete myself whatever's left.
Its chump change. Not worth the big firms even crossing the street to pick it up off the sidewalk.
It quite frankly isn't worth any competition either.
The market is too small to support more than me. Which is why I am willing to teach people podcasting as a means of niche marketing in order to keep them out of my market and let them find their own niche. (Okay, maybe 19 more direct competitors.)
But that also imposes a big burden on me to be the best and most representative person out there for my fellow MSers. That is a responsability I don't take lightly.
This podcast is needed by people who have MS. And people who have MS are likely to be picking up the podcast, finally get the information they need and, in the process, feeling less like poor orphans, feeling like nobody out there gives a, uh, crap.
Its called focused or niche advertising and its some that podcasting can really deliver.
The internet in a way of disseminating textual, graphical, audio and video information without regard to distance, without regard to time, without regard to audience size. In effect, its like Tivo on steroids for markets of any size.
Now Adam Curry may be right about the stranglehold that the **AAs have on the content and, something I have not heard him go on about, the chokehold that the broadcasters have on the **AAs, but it is really immaterial to the scale of the problem (or it would be if only they all weren't a bunch lawsuit happy accountants who feel that they they can't let you exist if your business model isn't aligned with theirs.)
The scale of the problem is really at the heart of the problem.
They were like we are less than a hundred years ago, but they have grown from small operators into really big fish which need enormous amounts of profit in order to keep their marging up.
And because we could never generate the numbers of dollars they need, they'll walk over or around our corpses, muttering about efficient markets and profit margins, never seeing us or hearing us yelling at them that we don't need efficient markets or profit margins, we'd just like news about what we care about without having to shore up the whole rotting edifice.
That's the premise anyway. Since the MS marketplace can't support can't support more than two or four or ten individuals doing this for them, providing this service, we have to be careful about how we tread and who we tread on. Given the monopolistic mind set present in the computing world and its seeming inability to deal with more than one vendor at a time, at least its something.
Please collaborate with me or find your own niche because, unlike Schrodinger's cat where it was iffy, there definitely ain't enough air in the box for two of us.
Then again, if you draw write your own business plan, you're not likely to find any backing. The returns are too low.
I'm going to be attending an MS function on Sunday the nineteenth of March and you'll be hearing all about it.
And I'm still working on a review for Rachel Knight's book. (My wife likes it too, perhaps more than I.)
Wish me luck and success. (Try the email on the msb.libsyn.com page :-)
I'm about to launch myself into a new venture.
Thanks for the email.
I have a request and its the same this week as last week.
Could you get yourselves on my Frapper map?
Its just down the left hand side of the msb.libsyn.com page.
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Just above that, you can Subscribe with iTunes.
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Just above that, you can Email Me.
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Just above that, you can fill out my simple little Audience survey.
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And some comments left on the episode you liked, or didn't like, would help me guide my future episodes to reflect what you want.
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Here is a 'prize question' for my listeners out there. (Like, who else could possibly answer?)
The winner will get a gift certificate for $50 bucks worth of iTunes.
I've been Googling since yesterday (you didn't think I was going to make it easy, did you?) and I can't find out the answer to a simple little question:
"Who designed the "'broken M, broken S' logo" for the MS Society?"
Maybe it was just a Canadian thing, I don't really recall seeing it in the 'States, they seem to favor a rather florid cartouche here, but it was the most evocative one and descriptive of the effects and of the disease.
I think it was based on Helvetica bold, or some other sans-serif typeface, with a stripe of the upper right ligature of the M and the middle of the S blocked out (or that's how I replicated it in the '80s.)
Computer typography has moved on quite a bit since I started and I no longer have neither the typeface nor the tools I used to replicate it. Actually, I doubt it would still work even if I had it; I'd used PostScript 1; they're up to PostScript 3 I think. Its been a while since I followed it.
That's why I want to get a new version of it to use in the blog, the media and to give my late cat a chance to finally get some rest on the iTunes site.
Even a GIF or two of the 'MS' would probably do but I'd really love it if it was an entire typeface with the capitals 'blocked out.'
Remember, I need the typeface. Just telling me "Hermann Zapf" or "Milton Glazer" doesn't cut it. I need an email address where he/she or their studio can be reached.
Think on it.
$50 bucks at the iTunes Music Store, my eternal gratitude and a chance to beam proudly and point at it whenever you see the logo.
Got to be worth something, even if its only $50 bucks.
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On with the show.
I did some research, crunched some numbers, checked my finances and I came to a conclusion.
I needed a business plan, complete with spread sheets, market stats, operational plans, the works (I must say that I found a template to follow at score.org.)
Here now is the exerpted management précis:
1. Executive Summary
Podcasting, the iTunes Music Store, RSS feeds, MP3s, show subscription statistics, individual show circulation statistics and content related to multiple sclerosis (MS) are at the heart of modern targeted advertising and at the heart of my business.
These things are the demystifying factors which enable people with MS as well as people who care about people with MS and people who care for people with MS, to easily and simply access the media and to access content.
A couple of clicks and these people are listening to, and possibly viewing, the MSB Podcasts, complete with ads focused on the MS market needs.
Product, customers and audience.
My product will be a podshow which can feature ads focused on people who have MS, people who care about people who have MS, or people who care for people who have MS, in addition to content on and about MS, and more.
This kind of focused advertising has never been possible before with the mass media. The expected rate of returns was simply to low to consider advertising, yet the products and services were needed by this audience.
My customers will be the pharmacological houses and the service providers who make products or provide services for people with MS, a market that has to date been neglected.
My audience will be people who have MS, people who care about people who have MS, or people who care for people who have MS.
This gives me wide latitude as to the actual show content which will span the gamut of news, view, reviews, interviews, special events and many other other things related to multiple sclerosis.
Ownership:
I am the sole owner of this show and of its related websites. I am the sole owner of the studio and mobile podcast production, and of the web production equipment, studio and ancillary facilities.
Future prospects for podcasting:
The future holds great promise for this kind of media.
It will take its place along side specialized print publications and provide new venues for soliciting comments and content that the print media could not and would not solicit for publication.
Company websites do not mention competition. Its not good business. But podcasts can.
Company websites do not mention other websites that are ancillary. Its not good business. But podcasts can.
Newsletters are static, limited in their print-budget (the mix of content, and of the kinds of content, to advertising,) of limited duration and accessibility and, speaking from personal experience as I produced a newsletter for the Ottawa chapter of the MS society, can't respond to the subscribers and can't really entertain while disseminating information.
Podcasts can act as aggregators and disseminators of a whole range of information from specifics treatments to MS Society gatherings anywhere in the world, and can do so with a mix of entertainment needed by the audience.
They are time-shifted, location-shifted, persistent distribution of show content. Think of them as an audio or video Tivo on steroids, for a specific marketplace.
Reason for this business plan:
I am not applying for financing, a loan of for financial assistance of any form at the current stage of the evolution of the podcast.
If I would be applying for a loan, I would state clearly how much I wanted, precisely how I was going to use it to update my facilities and/or equipment, to to hire any staff, and precisely how any money provided would used to make my business more profitable, thereby ensuring repayment.
At the moment, no such funding is required.
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Sounds great doesn't it?
Its not going to make me a rich man.
I'd have to capture the entire market.
According to the MS Society there are 250,000 people with MS in North America, there are about 80 makers of MS products, at $50/M impressions, my schedule permits 52 shows/year, giving 250k*80*$50/k*52 = $52,000,000/year in advertising revenue; which would be utterly impossible with each show consisting of at least 40 minutes of ads and no content whatsoever. It wouldn't be worth listening to twice and I couldn't see doing so even once.
Actually, given the ratio of people with MS to the general population, abouty 1,200 to 1 (0.0083% of the population) and the number of iPods sold (according to MacWorld thet is about 42,000,000,000 as of this writing) ceteriparibus I can estimate that about 3,500 of them have or will develop MS.
Fortunately for my business plan, there are a lot more copies of iTunes and people who can access the iTunes Music Store in circulation and every PC sold can play MP3s so market size is not an issue. The number of MP3 playing PCs is in the hundreds of millions and their geographic distribution is almost total.
If I'm lucky, I might get 5% of the market (12,500), 10% of the advertisers (8) and charge half the going rate ($25/k impressions) for 52 shows/year. ($130,000)
A nice chunk of change from which I can then deduct all of my expenses for printing, advertising, studio equipment, accounting fees and auditing fees, LibSyn fees, Kiptronic fees, mobile recording equipment, transportation and travel expenses, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah, pay a chunk to the gummint and then I can mete myself whatever's left.
Its chump change. Not worth the big firms even crossing the street to pick it up off the sidewalk.
It quite frankly isn't worth any competition either.
The market is too small to support more than me. Which is why I am willing to teach people podcasting as a means of niche marketing in order to keep them out of my market and let them find their own niche. (Okay, maybe 19 more direct competitors.)
But that also imposes a big burden on me to be the best and most representative person out there for my fellow MSers. That is a responsability I don't take lightly.
This podcast is needed by people who have MS. And people who have MS are likely to be picking up the podcast, finally get the information they need and, in the process, feeling less like poor orphans, feeling like nobody out there gives a, uh, crap.
Its called focused or niche advertising and its some that podcasting can really deliver.
The internet in a way of disseminating textual, graphical, audio and video information without regard to distance, without regard to time, without regard to audience size. In effect, its like Tivo on steroids for markets of any size.
Now Adam Curry may be right about the stranglehold that the **AAs have on the content and, something I have not heard him go on about, the chokehold that the broadcasters have on the **AAs, but it is really immaterial to the scale of the problem (or it would be if only they all weren't a bunch lawsuit happy accountants who feel that they they can't let you exist if your business model isn't aligned with theirs.)
The scale of the problem is really at the heart of the problem.
They were like we are less than a hundred years ago, but they have grown from small operators into really big fish which need enormous amounts of profit in order to keep their marging up.
And because we could never generate the numbers of dollars they need, they'll walk over or around our corpses, muttering about efficient markets and profit margins, never seeing us or hearing us yelling at them that we don't need efficient markets or profit margins, we'd just like news about what we care about without having to shore up the whole rotting edifice.
That's the premise anyway. Since the MS marketplace can't support can't support more than two or four or ten individuals doing this for them, providing this service, we have to be careful about how we tread and who we tread on. Given the monopolistic mind set present in the computing world and its seeming inability to deal with more than one vendor at a time, at least its something.
Please collaborate with me or find your own niche because, unlike Schrodinger's cat where it was iffy, there definitely ain't enough air in the box for two of us.
Then again, if you draw write your own business plan, you're not likely to find any backing. The returns are too low.
I'm going to be attending an MS function on Sunday the nineteenth of March and you'll be hearing all about it.
And I'm still working on a review for Rachel Knight's book. (My wife likes it too, perhaps more than I.)
Wish me luck and success. (Try the email on the msb.libsyn.com page :-)
I'm about to launch myself into a new venture.
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